My Place in this World

I was contemplating about my life. Suddenly a question popped out of my head, “What the hell am I doing here?”

I was reminiscing those times I’ve been through, all the things I accomplished. I can’t help it but to ask myself why am I in this type of life.

Don’t get me wrong. I love my job right now. Giving guidance to the new generation brings a lot of satisfaction. Teaching history is one my dream come true. However, I can’t help but wonder. If I have stayed in Manila, would my life still be the same?

In the year 2000, I successfully bound some of the most influential magickal communities here in Mindanao. I have organized different activities wherein everyone shared their own tradition. It went well for 2 years. Now, I am very happy to know that most of the people I worked with have their own success in their respective ventures.

In 2006, I auditioned for Nginiiig Paranormal Investigation, a TV show in Studio 23 wherein psychics were investigating different paranormal phenomenon. I emerged victoriously and was named as one of the Junior Psychic of the show. The show went on for months. Then it was cancelled due to lack of monetary support.

After that, I was invited by different TV shows in both ABS-CBN and GMA to guest as a paranormal investigator. Among the shows where Rated K (ABS-CBN), Shoptalk (ANC), SAPULSO (QTV), Kapuso mo, Jessica Soho (GMA), Mel and Joey (GMA) and Us Girls (Studio 23). I was even interviewed (through phone) by Mr. Rey Sibayan of DZRH.

I also managed to solve few of the cases that were handed down to me. Among those was the case of the missing children, the murder and robbery of a loved one and others.

I still have many things to babble about my accomplishments in the field of paranormal research. However, it won’t help me answer my question... “What the hell am I doing here?”
Now, I am working as a Guidance Counselor and History Teacher here in our locality. The town is very boring. Most of my social life is in the internet. I am over worked. The pay is not as much. I rarely use my learnings in paranormal. I have no clients for fortune reading anymore. Then why am I staying?

I am always a believer of the phrase, “Everything happens for a reason.” It maybe that my stay here is heading towards a brighter reason. Maybe, my stay here is for a certain purpose, which is unknown to me... for now.

All I have is faith. Faith that someday BATHALA will be able to enlighten me about my question. Faith that somehow, somewhere a destiny is intricately woven just for me... the destiny that I have to embrace for the rest of my existence.

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PLACE IN THIS WORLD

(Michael W. Smith)

The wind is blowing

But I am standing still

A life of pages

Waiting to be filled

A heart that's hopeful

A head that's full of dreams

But this becoming

Is harder than it seems

Feels like I'm

Looking for a reason

Roaming through the night to find

My place in this world

My place in this world

Not a lot to lean on

I need your light to help me find

My place in this world

If there are millions

Down on their knees

Among the many

Can you still hear me

Hear me asking

Where do I belong

Is there a vision

That I can call my own

Show me I'm

Looking for a reason
Roaming through the night to find
My place in this world
My place in this world
Not a lot to lean on
I need your light to help me find
My place in this world