To a place where it all started...

I am looking for a direction in life... I think the best place to find it is to go back to the place where everything started.

Back to work

After a week of extended vacation, I am now back to my work. I am happy to see my students once again.

I am a bit weak from my sickness but little by little I can cope up with things.

There are many things lined up until March. So far, I am trying my best to beat deadlines and do things with out most reverence.

As to my plans for this year, I am still clueless. I have scheduled discernment retreat on April. I still am not sure if I am ready to return to formation or extend another year of service as a teacher. I hope I can sort things out when time comes for my decision.

Things that made me occupied...

While I was sick, I was asked to leave from my work. As a workaholic, it means cutting me off from my usual activities. I have two choices, either to drown myself into a pool of self people or indulge into something worthwhile.

Instead of buying some liquor while watching some sappy films that makes me cry, I made some friendship bracelets.

This had been my hobby since I was in high school. I used to make them to be given to friends.

I remembered years ago that I used this to motivate my students to excel in their academics. Whenever there are students who gives a perfect score in my exams, I will give them one bracelet. It eventually worked.

Now that I have plans to open my e-store, it would be nice to start making them again to be sold. I am trying to look for new designs for it.

Since, I am just staying at home in my bed, I have plenty of time to make some new designs. I hope that I can realize this e-store. Soon.

Blood & Needles

I had dextrose last night. It was really uncomfortable. It's the first time I had a needle stuck under my skin for too long.

I also had some needle pricks in my other arms. My blood had to be extracted for testing. I already had 3 extractions.

I had no dextrose all day. But still the needle is still on my hand. Depending on the tests, I might have another dextrose tonight.

I prefer to stay at home than being admitted in the hospital. It is because I don't like hospitals at all. It is not a good place for an empath.

Until now, the doctors still can't confirm what I have. They say that it might be dengue or typhoid. I really don't care what type of illness it is. I don't even care if I live long or not. All I care about is taking off this needle from my body.

Lights out

I went to the hospital at around 6:00 PM. It was of course, already dark. When my sister and I got to the hospital, the lights are all out. It was blacked out.

We waited for awhile for the power to return. But after awhile my sister decided to have my blood extracted. We will just leave it in the laboratory. She said that she will just call for to follow up the result.

While walking down the hallway from the laboratory, I noticed that the building next to the hospital is so bright. It was well lighted. I asked my sister why they have lights over there while the hospital is a bit dark. She told me that they have generator.

The irony of it is, there is no more offices open during that time of night. All the employees had gone home. And yet, they managed to light it up because of the beautiful lights adorned in the building. On the other hand, the hospital, which needs electricity because of the patients, laboratories and emergencies couldn't be provided with lights. Is that reasonable enough?

I am not suppose to write something like this in my blog. However, I couldn't just keep quite about it. If for some reason, concerned people are going to read about this, I hope they can find some means to fix this situation. It is because, we must re think our priorities in our society.

Sick... Sick... Sick...

Since December 28, I was feeling a little weak. I thought it was just a bad hang over. It is because I haven't had alcohol for quite sometime. And during the Grand Alumni Homecoming, I tried to drink. Maybe I had too much of it.

Until now, I am still sick. My fever is on and off. I can't sleep comfortable at night because of it. I had taken some medicines but nothing seem to work. Now I am forced to take a leave of absence from my work. I need to rest for a while.

I hope this will not be my situation for the rest of the year. There are so many things that I want to do.