I'm still alive!

It had been 4 months and 15 days since I quit from my old job... those days were enough time for me to reflect on things that are necessary in my life. Now, I am back to my old job. It is really satisfying and enriching.

Long Solitary Confinement

My apologies for those who are keeping track of my blog. It had been awhile since I published something new.

My current situation is a bit complicated as it was before. Complicated to explain, yet quite simple to live. Anyway complications are somethings directly proportional to the person's point of view.

Please feel free to explore on my past entries. I will be updating something new soon.

Blessings to all.

Stage Production Workshop

Last week, I was contacted to share my thoughts about stage production to a group of students. I am suppose to give a lecture/ workshop on Scriptwriting only. It ended I also gave them some background knowledge about how to handle stage make up.

Dirty Politics

Normally, I stay away from political affairs as much as I can. However, this is really near impossible since every person is a social (political) being. Whatever happens in the realm of politics affects everybody.

I wrote this in my journal for awareness. What is magical about politics anyway?

Politics is about a choice. It is a concrete manifestation of our free will. Who will be elected in the office would largely depend on each and everyone’s vote. A vote is a very powerful tool. A single vote may make or break the political career of an individual.

What makes me decide to write about politics? Lately when I opened my Facebook account, I found something in the wall that triggers me. It was posted by a teenager, giving some negative comments about a certain politician who is running for president. What is worst is that the statement was allegedly found in the Holy Bible.

We are always complaining about dirty politics. We complain about politicians cheating during election counts, violence and vote buying. However, we fail to reflect and ask ourselves what are our contribution to a clean election. Negative propaganda (“black propaganda”) is part of a dirty election. Its objective is to shatter the credibility of a politician to give rise to another. And most of us are guilty of this. We say bad things about another politician to promote our bets. The rule is, “If you have nothing good to say about somebody, don’t say anything at all.”

What angered me most is that people are involving religion in the process. We must try to realize that everything about our religion, especially the Sacred Books, should be respected. We don’t use our religion to propagate “black propagandas”. It is wrong in two sense. One, it is a sin the society to participate in dirty politics. Two, it is a sin in our religion to use the sacred item in wrong ends.

For us to have a clean politics, let us actively participate in a clean one. I know that it is not an overnight process yet if we commit ourselves in having a clean election... then it’s a start.

Please vote wisely.

Do you believe in magick?

What is magick anyway? People always mistake magick to the special effects they saw on television. Mostly, when you talk about magick, people are always thinking of flying, lights and smokes, and super powers. This is how we view magick. Due to our ignorance, we fail to see the real essence of magick in our lives. We fail to recognize that magick is everywhere and everytime.

Magick is not something that is spectacular. Magick is something that is part of our being, as co creator. It is something we share with the DIVINE.

When you wake up in the morning, it is magick. Do you know how many people who died in their sleep? Do you know what are the chances that you might be at risk when you are sleeping? There might be a fire. There might be burglary. There might be a natural calamity. And yet God loves us so much that He is protecting us even in our sleep. Well, I don’t know if that does not sound magick to you.

Being able to relate with others in magick. Love is magick. You can just imagine how many people are there around the world. And you will end up with just one. That is really very magickal.

Look around you. Flowers are blossoming from a plant, birds flying freely, the rain... everything is very magickal.

People are always asking, “Is magick real?” This is an invalid question since, magick is really there. It was present during the time of creation. And it is still there. The real question is, “Do you believe in magick?”

Closing Doors

At the height of the fullmoon, a flame is bursting in the open. Pieces of paper keeps burning. Every letters, every diagram and every page is a symbolic transformation of a being. As the papers turn into ashes, a new sensation inside my being is washed from all the horrors of the past.

I already burned all of the documents I have accumulated in the past. All of there are my research on mysticism and witchcraft. This is the start of another journey in my life.

People around me told me that it's a waste. They wanted to save some of them since they know all the things that I have gone through just accumulating all those things. But I told them, "I don't need them anymore."

I am also not accepting clients for Tarot Reading and Psychic Consultation. I also junked all the tools that I was using. Basically, I am closing the doors in learning magickal rituals and ceremonies.

Now, what's left is a 10year void in my life. What should I do? There is a huge space in my bookshelf. There is some vacant corners in my room.

Well, in the lighter side... I can start a new life.

Regrets? Nothing. Because I know that all these things happen for a reason.

Here comes the LIGHT...

It is really hard to relive memories of the past. There are things that can still be restored. And yet there are things that are lost forever. It had been almost 10 years since I've got this feeling, the feeling of peace, tranquility and enlightenment.

I have reached a dead end in the road. I have no choice but to go back and look for another route to get through. However, the road that I had journeyed before had been scattered with thorns. People whom I had meet had been long gone. Those who are stationed in the road isn't that friendly either. Some of them have been clouded with prejudices. (Sadly, there are only few people nowadays who believe in second chances.)

But deep inside, I really don't care. I am not here to please anybody. I am here to continue my journey... go where the GUIDING HAND is leading me.

Now that I am back into a world that I must traverse, I must enjoy the journey. Accept all the criticisms, all the discouragements and bring out my inner strength.

I know that I can make this. I know that someday, I can still find the LIGHT. I can still save the corrupted soul...