Food for Christmas

During Christmas season, I enjoy food the most. It is because it is the time of the year when my fatherprepares the delicious food. And I know for a fact that my father is a great cook. I remembered that everytimethere is a party here at home, there is usually no leftovers. It is because our visitors would eventually bring home the food that they can't eat. Their favorite is the "dinuguan" (thank God I don't eat that food).

This Christmas, we will be savoring the taste of my dad's "Hamon". This is his version of the ham we usuallybuy from the supermarket.

But of course, for some of the food we will be having, mom helped out. She is the one in charge of cookingfor our everyday meals. My dad only cooks during special occassion.
Here, she is doing the "little shrimps" mixed with flour and eggs. Then, fried.

Have a sumptous Christmas everyone.

12-21-2010 Lunar Eclipse

(This is my first attempt to upload a video in my blog site. This is because I am planning to upload more videos about my handicrafts. Stay posted.)

Candies of Christmas

I wrapped up some candies using a colored cellophane and shape it like a candy. Then I distributed it to the carollers.
I really love celebrating Christmas like this. During this time of the year, I see to it that I could give as much to everyone. But of course, it is not that much though...
Gone are those days when the trunk of my car is full of instant noodles and canned goods. Then I would go to my friends in the mountains and give it to them.
Now, I have to maximize what I have.
Besides, this maybe the last Christmas I will celebrate outside.
Merry Christmas everyone.

The Magick of the Moon

During Supper, I heard that there will be a Lunar Eclipse today. I hurried and got my camera to capture its essence.

This is really meaningful it is because this is the 3rd Lunar Eclipse of the year. And it occurred on December 21, 2010... which is when converted to numerology is 1-2-2-1-2-0-1-0... Hhmmm, seems like a code to me. Nahh, I will just deal with it when I am not busy.

In the meantime, enjoy the shoots I got of the moon. Although I am not using a very sophisticated gadget, I tried my best to capture its beauty with series of shoots.

Stopover at the land of "Aswang"

I was really very excited. On the way to Boracay, we had a stop over at Capiz. We ate our lunch there. This is my first time to travel to this place.

With all the stories I have heard about the place, I couldn't help it but wander what is in this place.

Maybe this is the reason why I ordered chicken. Just to be sure... hehehe

Lost pet

When I went home from work, I found out that Pucca was missing. This cat is very important to me because she had the same markings as Aurora (my pet that went missing a year ago). We tried to look for her inside the house. I also asked neighbors if they saw her. She couldn't be found anywhere. I feared that she will become another Aurora.

I was more worried about Pucca than Aurora. It is because Aurora knows the in and out of the house. While Pucca stayed only inside the house. So I was worried that she might not know the way back inside the house.

I slept with a heavy heart. It is because a night before her disappearance, she went inside my room and slept there. Since Tigger (my cat room mate) doesn't mind it, I let her slept in.

During lunch time of the following day, I went home from work just to check if she is already home. But she wasn't.

When I went home during the night, my parents found her just in the kitchen.

I was very happy.

Some people might not understand why I am very emotionally attached with my pet. This is because I grew up with them as my real friends. They are fun to be around. They are always faithful to me.

Save the Earth

As civilization grew and new technology rose, our environment laid as victim of greed and power. Man had put himself in a situation wherein he has to choose if he would continue to develop his own prowess or preserve what was his...

Rise of the "Engkanto"

There were people who kept on asking me, "Why Rene Engkanto?" Did I go back to my magical workings?

The answer is NO.

This question came up because I changed my name in facebook from Rene Espinosa to Rene Engkanto. This is because when I search for the name Rene Espinosa, there were many people who are using the name. So I decided, I would change it to Rene Engkanto...

The name itself is not a magical name. It is more of an alias. I am fond of using the term "Engkanto" to associate myself with the spirits of nature.

I am a nature lover. Although, I am fond of having plants, I am most fond of animals. They are my constant companions. (In fact, TIGGER is looking at me so intently last night. "Ano kayang iniisip niya?")

It doesn't mean that I am using the name Rene Engkanto, "bumalik na naman ako sa pangkukulam..." How can I do so if all of my tools were either burned or given to other people?" I already made a choice in my life. And I have to stand by that choice...

Many people may not believe me... but when was the time that I listened to what other people believed? All that matters is "I believe in myself."

Malisyosong Diwa at Matalas na Dila

1
May mensahe ako para sa lahat
Nawa'y pakinggan yaring ulat
Isinulat upang kaisipa'y mamulat
Tatamaan ang taong may sugat

2
Habang naglalakad ay may nasasalubong
Mga taong wari'y nakatalukbong
Malaya bang makikita bawat katangian?
Aking ipamahagi ang kanilang katauhan

3
Aking nakilala ang magandang dalaga
Mukha'y maamo at kaaya-aya
Ganda ng boses ay nasa bawat salita
Ngunit puso'y may nakatagong taga

4
Talino'y dakila at di mapantayan
Mula sa paaralan ang angking karunungan
Ipinagmamalaki taglay na kakayahan
Sa larangan ng musika, talento'y di mapantayan

5
Ngunit ano itong aking napuna
Maganda man ang rosa'y may tinik pala
Pumupuna ng kamalian ng iba
Kapag may nadapa ay sa kanya ang tawa

6
Madasaling birhen ang panglabas na anyo
Ngunit kasamaan ang nakaukit sa puso
Aanhin ang ganda at boses ng tao
Kung patalikod ang kanyang estilo

I'm still alive!

It had been 4 months and 15 days since I quit from my old job... those days were enough time for me to reflect on things that are necessary in my life. Now, I am back to my old job. It is really satisfying and enriching.

Long Solitary Confinement

My apologies for those who are keeping track of my blog. It had been awhile since I published something new.

My current situation is a bit complicated as it was before. Complicated to explain, yet quite simple to live. Anyway complications are somethings directly proportional to the person's point of view.

Please feel free to explore on my past entries. I will be updating something new soon.

Blessings to all.

Stage Production Workshop

Last week, I was contacted to share my thoughts about stage production to a group of students. I am suppose to give a lecture/ workshop on Scriptwriting only. It ended I also gave them some background knowledge about how to handle stage make up.

Dirty Politics

Normally, I stay away from political affairs as much as I can. However, this is really near impossible since every person is a social (political) being. Whatever happens in the realm of politics affects everybody.

I wrote this in my journal for awareness. What is magical about politics anyway?

Politics is about a choice. It is a concrete manifestation of our free will. Who will be elected in the office would largely depend on each and everyone’s vote. A vote is a very powerful tool. A single vote may make or break the political career of an individual.

What makes me decide to write about politics? Lately when I opened my Facebook account, I found something in the wall that triggers me. It was posted by a teenager, giving some negative comments about a certain politician who is running for president. What is worst is that the statement was allegedly found in the Holy Bible.

We are always complaining about dirty politics. We complain about politicians cheating during election counts, violence and vote buying. However, we fail to reflect and ask ourselves what are our contribution to a clean election. Negative propaganda (“black propaganda”) is part of a dirty election. Its objective is to shatter the credibility of a politician to give rise to another. And most of us are guilty of this. We say bad things about another politician to promote our bets. The rule is, “If you have nothing good to say about somebody, don’t say anything at all.”

What angered me most is that people are involving religion in the process. We must try to realize that everything about our religion, especially the Sacred Books, should be respected. We don’t use our religion to propagate “black propagandas”. It is wrong in two sense. One, it is a sin the society to participate in dirty politics. Two, it is a sin in our religion to use the sacred item in wrong ends.

For us to have a clean politics, let us actively participate in a clean one. I know that it is not an overnight process yet if we commit ourselves in having a clean election... then it’s a start.

Please vote wisely.

Do you believe in magick?

What is magick anyway? People always mistake magick to the special effects they saw on television. Mostly, when you talk about magick, people are always thinking of flying, lights and smokes, and super powers. This is how we view magick. Due to our ignorance, we fail to see the real essence of magick in our lives. We fail to recognize that magick is everywhere and everytime.

Magick is not something that is spectacular. Magick is something that is part of our being, as co creator. It is something we share with the DIVINE.

When you wake up in the morning, it is magick. Do you know how many people who died in their sleep? Do you know what are the chances that you might be at risk when you are sleeping? There might be a fire. There might be burglary. There might be a natural calamity. And yet God loves us so much that He is protecting us even in our sleep. Well, I don’t know if that does not sound magick to you.

Being able to relate with others in magick. Love is magick. You can just imagine how many people are there around the world. And you will end up with just one. That is really very magickal.

Look around you. Flowers are blossoming from a plant, birds flying freely, the rain... everything is very magickal.

People are always asking, “Is magick real?” This is an invalid question since, magick is really there. It was present during the time of creation. And it is still there. The real question is, “Do you believe in magick?”

Closing Doors

At the height of the fullmoon, a flame is bursting in the open. Pieces of paper keeps burning. Every letters, every diagram and every page is a symbolic transformation of a being. As the papers turn into ashes, a new sensation inside my being is washed from all the horrors of the past.

I already burned all of the documents I have accumulated in the past. All of there are my research on mysticism and witchcraft. This is the start of another journey in my life.

People around me told me that it's a waste. They wanted to save some of them since they know all the things that I have gone through just accumulating all those things. But I told them, "I don't need them anymore."

I am also not accepting clients for Tarot Reading and Psychic Consultation. I also junked all the tools that I was using. Basically, I am closing the doors in learning magickal rituals and ceremonies.

Now, what's left is a 10year void in my life. What should I do? There is a huge space in my bookshelf. There is some vacant corners in my room.

Well, in the lighter side... I can start a new life.

Regrets? Nothing. Because I know that all these things happen for a reason.

Here comes the LIGHT...

It is really hard to relive memories of the past. There are things that can still be restored. And yet there are things that are lost forever. It had been almost 10 years since I've got this feeling, the feeling of peace, tranquility and enlightenment.

I have reached a dead end in the road. I have no choice but to go back and look for another route to get through. However, the road that I had journeyed before had been scattered with thorns. People whom I had meet had been long gone. Those who are stationed in the road isn't that friendly either. Some of them have been clouded with prejudices. (Sadly, there are only few people nowadays who believe in second chances.)

But deep inside, I really don't care. I am not here to please anybody. I am here to continue my journey... go where the GUIDING HAND is leading me.

Now that I am back into a world that I must traverse, I must enjoy the journey. Accept all the criticisms, all the discouragements and bring out my inner strength.

I know that I can make this. I know that someday, I can still find the LIGHT. I can still save the corrupted soul...

The firefly charm

I have made this charm last week. I am trying my best now to test it if it really works.

I used a wood from the tree where firefly is crowding during the night. I have inserted a quartz crystal inside the wood. Then inscribed a fairy star outside.

It is believed that the wood from the tree where firefly is crowding (puno ng alitaptap) is used to attract attention and good luck to anyone who possess it. I used the quartz crystal and fairy star to magnify its effect.

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Experiment 1: Luck for Gambling
I asked one of my former student to wear it during a card game.

Result:
The wearer won the 3 games. However, it took him sometime to navigate through his cards. This means that luck is not that powerful since it needed some of his skills to win the game. This charm can be used for gambling. However, it will just have a small effect.


Experiment 2: Charming others
(to be posted soon)

24 hour Internet

I love this 24-hour unlimited internet access given by Globe Broadband (Tattoo). I was surfing from 10am to 1am yesterday...

Using your broadband, just type SUPERSURF50 and send it to 8888. Then you will be receiving a confirmation that you can use your unlimited internet access.

It is cheap since it only cost Php 50.00. You can now have one day 24-hour unlimited internet access.

It is really a great deal especialy if you are researching through the internet.

The Worst Book ever...

My sister went to the bookstore to buy her favorite horror books. Then, she also bought me something. (She knew all the books that I like). I was excited when I received the text message. It's something about Gayuma (love potion).

When I saw the book.. I was browsing through it... my goodness. I was really shock.

REASONS WHY IT IS THE WORST BOOK EVER WRITTEN:

1. The literary style is a "copy cat" of a very good author I liked. It lacks originality. Bob Ong's literary style is very nice. It has a flavor of attitude and a sincere heart in the text. However, this "photo copy style" is worst since it radiates the annoying "bitchy" attitude of the author.

2. Since, the book presents the attitude of the author, it had provided views that are relevant to the author only. It does show his emotions towards people bridging into a more "hate driven" attitude. Instead of being able to relax, you will be drawn into a pool of mixed anger and hate.

3. It has no bibliographical entry nor reference materials. Within the book are insights from previously written book. I don't know why the publisher tolerated such act. However, I do know that plagarism is a crime.


The book lacks imagination and is not suitable for those who are learning about psychic skills or potion making. It is clearly a work of a "self proclaimed psychic" who day dreams he is the master of something. He should stop writing and just content himself into being a physical therapist. It is because this book will not end in my shelves. It will end up on the pile of papers that I will be burning.

Free as a bird

I can never forget the wisdom that was shared to me by a client when I did a Tarot Card reading for him. I was doing the reading and explaining to him about the good and bad meaning of the cards. He told me, “All the things in this world are but good and bad. The important thing is on how we see them.”

Every situation that happens to us has a dual meaning. It has some good and bad effect on us. They say that an optimist sees the world as beautiful and radiant. A pessimist sees the world as dark and cloudy. It is up to us to choose how we view our lives. However, let us not fall into the trap wherein we will be tied into one type of perspective. It is because at some point an optimist can become a fool when he doesn’t notice that he is just being used by the people around him for their own end.

There were a lot of messages sent to me by people I care about, people from my previous job. They could not believe about my decision. They can’t believe that it is all happening so fast. I couldn’t either. Earlier, I was informed that one of my co teachers took pity on my situation. I just smiled. I was telling them that I am relieved that I am not part of the institution. It feels a whole lot better than a cold bottle of Mountain Dew. Of course, I am very sad to leave people I’ve grown to love for almost 2 years. However, I need to make this decision because it is in my conviction that it is the right thing to do. Even if it is painful, we should do things according to what is right.

I told them that “everything happens for a reason.” Frankly, I don’t know what that reason is for all of this. All I know is that GOD will reveal it to me in the right time, in the right moment. Now, I only have my faith on his GUIDING HAND... faith that someday, somehow I could find the bliss, the place where I can truly belong.

For now, I am enjoying my freedom. My celebration of the Lenten Season is very solemn and prayerful. I was alone with myself, able to discern things on my own. Next week would be very busy week for me. I will be doing the job hunting (which I am very much excited). I am thrilled to know what is in store for me. People around me might think that I should be worried. It is because it is very hard to look for a job. But the truth is I am not worried. Besides I am not in a hurry to start for a new job. I am taking my time to enjoy the journey. I am taking my time, enjoying each step, spending time with my family.

It is a great feeling to be able to spread my wings... to fly... to truly become “free as a bird.”

Seriousness on April Fools

It is a tradition that nobody takes anybody seriously on April Fools. Here in the Philippines we seldom celebrate it during April 1 but rather celebrate it on December 28, the Innnocent's Day. However, this is a seemingly fading tradition. Only few people view the relevance of continuing such saga. In the age of materialism, wherein money is the main focus of everyone, tradition that is not "worth a peso" is not worth anything at all. Now, here I go... breaking the tradition of April Fools. This is because this blog entry is a serious matter. I am compelled to do this because I need to have a clear name regarding my departure.

Yes, I already resigned from my job. I have given my Letter of Resignation today, April 1, at around 1:00PM. It was already received.

The primary reason for my departure is the memorandum I received last March 31, 2010. Frankly, I am not afraid of any memorandum. It is because I have received some in the past employments that I have. But this memorandum is something different. It degrades me to the lowest possible creature I can think of.

The memorandum stated allegations against me. Those allegations are clearly based on rumors and half-truths. It is one sided since it was just from the point of view of the complainant (if there is any) and the institution. I was not provided with the opportunity to air out my side, since there was never any deliberation that occured.

I know that it is a long process to really clear my name. My dignity is at stake. However, I am resting my fate in the bossom of the Lord. If ever the people around me will continue to think that I am a "Misguided Guidance Counselor", it is their right. But let me tell you this, throughout my life, I have always sacrificed everything for the sake of others. I have given up my own personal needs to satisfy the needs of others. If ever people will not see it, it really doesn't matter. All I know is that I am being watched by the "All Seeing Eye"... HE knows me outside and inside.

So, for the institution that is supposed to be my refuge... my apologies... this bird has to fly.

For my students, my heartfelt apologies. I've grown closer to you but still there are things in life that we cannot control. I am doing this decision not because I don't want to be with you. I am doing this decision because it is the right thing to do. Believe me, it hurts (a lot). But when you grow older, you will soon realize that sometimes even if we don't want to do things, we have to... because we know deep within that it is the right thing to do... Just promise me that you will do great things with your life. Study hard. Pray even harder. You will soon realize that life can be a pain in the ass. But it is still worth it at all. You'll see...

For my co teachers, I am very sorry for the shortcomings that I have caused you. I know that at times I am really very hard to understand, even harder to work with. But I hope you can see it that all I am after is just "excellence in work" and for the sake of our students. If ever I have caused you pain, I am very sorry.For those who who have grown closer to me, I know how painful it is to bear my sudden departure. All I can share is the strength that I am holding on at this moment... I am constantly reminding myself that everything happens for a reason. May that reason be unknown to us during this moment, but in God's time it will be revealed. And we could see that every person, every event, everything is according to what is supposed to be. You don't need to be a psychic to know that. All you have to do is gather a strong faith to believe in HIM, who knows everything.

For the parents, for those who think that I am a "Misguided Guidance Counselor", I am very very sad for your conviction. If I was a Misguided Counselor as you are stating, then your children could have killed themselves or doing drugs at this point. You might just not approve of my methods. But it doesn't mean that it is not relevant... I admit. I am nota big psychology major. In fact, it might be a shock to you that I am a PHILOSOPHY MAJOR. So why the hell am I appointed as a Guidance Counselor? It is because during that time the institution is trusting my wisdom and experience to guide the students. My psychic skills and my 3 units in psychology had provided me with a small insight about the job description. At my end, I have exhausted all the things that I have to guide your children. My challenge is, how about you? Have you done your part? It's a shame that sometimes other people know your children better than you. Maybe it's not the children who needs counselling.

When I applied in the institution, I have all the intention to help. It is because I have known that most of employees of the school had resigned, including all key positions. Since then, I have made it a personalgoal to assist the school in any way I can. This is the reason why I am juggling jobs not suppose to be in my job description.

I have no regrets. I am not complaining about the job... I have learned to love the job. However, there are really times when we know how to turn our back and move away... Having done this does not mean that I am a quitter. Sometimes, when you know that you are not wanted anymore, you have to take actions. It is because the more you force yourself within an organization even if this is happening, you are just fooling yourself... wasting your time... and denying yourself of the opportunities that is yet to come.

It was just painful that my departure is with a heavy heart. It is because of feeling being used, feeling betrayed... And I have learned from experience that when you feel those things, it is really happening... not just another "illusion of the heart."

Welcome to my new realm

This room is very special to me. I have planned the details. If not for my job, I should have been the one who repaired it. But the painting is all me. I picked the color and painted it myself. Although it is very crude, I am proud of it. I realized that it is harder to paint ceilings than walls. I was almost covered with paint. And it is so hard to remove it from the skin. But seeing the room now is all worth it.

Now, I have my little hiding place where I could create my stories, study on magick and of course do my school work.

The DAY...

I am a year older... and I am loving it...

Is this the day I've been waiting?

Tomorrow is a special day for me... I am filled with mixed emotions. I don't know what to expect. I don't know what to feel. I don't want to know...
I'm filled with a lot of flashbacks... Old visions of things that is yet to come still lingers in my mind. I don't know if I should believe in it or I should honor it. But what I know is I must not let it take over my life.
I still have many things to do. But what if this is it? This is the day that I've been waiting for?
I'm a bit worried. What will happen next?
Only time can tell.

Fiery March

March is Fire Prevention Month. It is the time when we advocate the use of fire safely.

The reason for this is maybe because due to the coming of summer, the temperature is rising, fire is more likely to run wild...

It is maybe a coincidence that March is also derived from Mars, the greek god of war... most likely associated with fire.

Old pix of Halloween 2009

New Room: The story of a trying hard painter

After class, I have another role to play. I bought some paint. I was confused at to what color to choose for my new room. I did had a choice before, shade of green. But when I saw that they've painted the receiving area with sea green, I have to look for another color.
My sister's room is lavender. I need to come up with a color that would best suit my personality. I used to have blue as the color of my room. But now, I think I have to look for other colors, as if trying to change the image I had. I need a little more vibrance in my life... This is the reason I choose YELLOW.
I started painting my room. It's a work in progress. Besides I'm still new at this. I don't have a PhD in painting, nor even an eye to differentiate colors. But somehow, I managed to paint one wall last night... I have paint all over my arms, legs and even clothes. I was just like a kid trying to explore a new craft.
Now, I am here at school living a role that I am familiar with. After school, I will be putting on my painting clothes again, until I finish the whole room.
And when I'm done, I wanted to have a perfect hideaway... a perfect place where I could achieve some more things in life.

My new room mate

With Aurora gone, I need to find a new room mate. I need to have a cat by my side every night because I am always confronted with nightmares... They serve as my guardian.

Tigger, is the kitten of Snow White. Snow White is the sister of Aurora and a kitten of Thacky. Tigger is really very different from the different cats I have.

Montessori vs. Kings

Heat Wave

The sun is blazing hot...

... due to the heat, the scheduled brown out is here once again.

It's like 1980's once again.

Behind the scene of Beauty & the Beast

A play to remember

A day before the play of the Seniors, I was contacted by their director to help in the make up of the characters. I agreed and worked on the make up of the wolves and beast.

100 Faces (part 1)

These are pictures I've taken since last year. My new hobby is to take pictures of 100 people I know. All of these pictures remind me of some beautiful stories of these faces I met.

Face 1: GLESSY

Face 2: FRITZIE

Face 3: ELLA MARIE

Face 4: ANAMARIE

Face 5: ALLYSA KAYE

Cute kids

These are the Grade One pupils of the Montessori Learning Center of Tacurong. They

Prom 2010

Aphrodisiacs

Aphrodisiacs are any substances that can stimulate sexual desires. They are the natural "gayuma". Here are the different food that is considered aphrodisiacs.

• Alcohol: lowers inhibitions and increases confidence; however, over-indulgence has a sedative effect not conducive to a romantic tryst.
• Asparagus: three courses of asparagus were served to 19th century bridegrooms due to its reputed aphrodisiac powers.
• Banana: due not only to its shape, but also its creamy, lush texture, some studies show its enzyme bromelain enhances male performance.
• Caviar: is high in zinc, which stimulates the formation of testosterone, maintaining male functionality.
• Champagne: viewed as the "drink of love," moderate quantities lower inhibitions and cause a warm glow in the body.
• Chocolate: contains both a sedative which relaxes and lowers inhibitions and a stimulant to increase activity and the desire for physical contact. It was actually banned from some monasteries centuries ago.
• Figs: seasonal crops were celebrated by ancient Greeks in a frenzied copulation ritual.
• Ginseng: increases desire for physical contact.
• Perfumes: made of natural foodstuffs such as almond, vanilla, and other herbs and spices act as a pheromone to communicate emotions by smell.
• Puffer Fish: considered both a delicacy and an aphrodisiac in Japan. If the poisonous gland is not properly removed, the tiniest taste is deadly. The flirt with death is said to give a sexual thrill. Not recommended.
• Oysters: Some oysters repeatedly change their sex from male to female and back, giving rise to claims that the oyster lets one experience the the masculine and feminine sides of love.
• Radish: considered a divine aphrodisiac by Egyptian pharoahs, most likely because its spicy taste stimulated the palate.
• Truffles: probably due to its rarity and musky aroma, it has long been considered to arouse the palate and the body. To sustain his masculinity, an ancient lover in lore was said to have gorged himself to death on Alba truffles during the wedding feast.

from http://homecooking.about.com/od/holidayandpartyrecipes/a/aphrodisiacs.htm

Aim High!

The 3rd Grading period just culminated. It was sponsored by the YFC (Youth For Christ). The theme of the celebration is "Aim High!"

The audience were thrilled when the Grade One class of Montessori Tacurong presented their winning lip synchronization. It was really very cute. I was sitting on the basketball court while watching the cute little girls danced and sang the remix of Hush Hush and I will survive.

Ah finally... I can have a long rest. This afternoon would be the Junior and Senior Prom of the elementary department. I already told our principal that I will not be joining the event. I will just join the HS JS Prom on monday.

The Valentine Curse

It seems early this year... I was anticipating it would happen next week.

It's always like this every year. I have my heart broken everytime Valentine's day approaches. If it is not a serious break up, it is a big fight... This year, I don't know where to categorize my experience. It's not a serious break. It's not even a fight. It is just some misunderstandings. There are things left unsaid...

And yet, it still hurts... a lot.

PSI: Artuz case

It was early Sunday when I received a call from my classmate in my Graduate Studies. She told me that she needed my help. I was still half awake. I told her that I need a picture of the person she wanted to locate.

Hours later, she visited me at home. She brought with her the picture of Salvador Artuz. Sadly, the picture is rather very hazy. (He was the one with stripped polo shirt, black and white.) She told me that this man is not fond of picture taking.

Now that I have a new case, I have now a new challenge. This is an opportunity for me to learn some more on how perfect my gifts.

Search for Mr. & Ms. Campus 2010

Exposure

There were several people who texted me. They told me that they saw my picture in the newspaper. They were asking me if I am related to any of the victims of the massacre. It is because the caption stated that the relatives of the victim. I told them no. I was helping a friend. That is the reason why I was in the picture.

(Picture from http://www.mindanews.com/)

Momay Case: Two months after the massacre (Part 2)

There was a slight delay. There was no proper coordination with the delegations and the family of the victims. The delegations went to the site first. The family was left in the highway. It is because the road is too narrow. It would be difficult to bring all of the vehicles there at once. After awhile, the family decided to push through even if it means walking for about a kilometer just to get to the site. We went on. The site is roughly 3 kilometers from the highway.

During our travel to the site, I kept scanning my drawing. These drawing were the visions I saw since December (please refer to my previous post). I saw my visions came into reality when I saw the house with the woman and a man in front, the rough road, cogon grass and banana plants with the house in the background, the cow with a small tree in the background. I saw everything as if I am living my visions. That was the moment when I realized that this is it. This is the place I’ve been looking for.

We arrived at the massacre site. There was a short program headed by different organizations. Then candles were lighted and flowers were offered. I went to chat with the CHR. A staff showed me pictures of a digging they did in a different site. They wanted me to visualize something. This is because they didn’t find any corpse in the dig. It was like the first dig we had. It was just the stench of rotting corpse but no corpse at all. I told them to look further, there lies a man with big stomach and balding hair. The staff told me that it matched the description of the driver who was hired to dig the mass graves in this area.

I then scouted the area. I just pass through the mass graves. I head straight to the grassy area after the graves. There I saw the vision of a man running but was a shot. Then they told me that there were two people who were found there. Then I went back to the hole where the vehicles were dug. There, my client was sitting in the hole, sobbing. I went to comfort here. This is the moment that I know she found her father. I gave her some incense stick. I told her to light some incense for her father. She tried but she was trembling. Then she cried her heart out, letting go of the emotions she was trying to hide. She cried for about 2 minutes. I fell silent just by her side. When I saw the hole, I saw the last vision I had. It was the area where I saw a corpse laying face flat to the ground. There, I told her, “This is the spot. This is where your father is located.” She said, “Pa, ang lapad naman ng libingan mo.” (Father, your grave is so wide.) I comforted here until the emotions subsided.

I almost lost my own consciousness in the area. This is because of the explosion of emotions. The emotions of the past were quite unbearable. Added to these are the emotions of the person present in the area during this moment. I just sat at a stone. I was trying to ground myself. I was healing myself from all the negativities of the atmosphere.

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For those who watched the three-hour retrieval operation footage, I know that you can have a glimpse of what had happened during that day. But for me, I was there. I saw everything in the vision. The series of visions I had from December was quite unbearable. I saw how the victims were killed. I heard their cries. Their anguish resounded in the walls of my room. What makes it worst is when I took a peek at the emotions of the people they left behind. The aches and pains are immeasurable. However, I still am very much astonished to see their strength amidst it all.
I am praying that justice will be served quickly. I am praying for the family of those victims. I hope that this storm would pass... and this event will eventually end the senseless killings in the Promise Land.

Momay Case: Two months after the massacre(Part 1)

Two months ago, this place is like an arena of the ancient Roman Empire. Death had engulfed this hill. Cries of torment and endless pleading are in the air. No one would ever dare to be here during that moment. It’s like a nightmare that a child would never dare dream... except for me.

I need to see things by myself. I need to be in the spot where the Maguindanao Massacre took place. It will help me trace the history of that gory event of the November 23, 2009 massacre.
I have to do this not because I wanted to. I have to do this to help ease the pain of the families that was left. And there is nothing more painful than what the suffering of the Momay family. They lost their father. The worst is they never found the body. This is the reason why I was invited in the picture.

It was Friday night when the daughter of “Bebot” Momay texted me. The family of the victims with the media will be going up to the site. It is in commemoration of the day of the massacre. They invited me to go with them. I asked permission from my superior to be absent for that day. I went with the family.

It was 11:00 AM of Saturday when the convoy fetch me. I was warmly welcomed by the family of the victims. Most of them, it is the first time to go up in the site. For my client, the daughter of Bebot, it was her third time. Since, she was present during the 3 hour retrieval operation took place.

The family of the victims was wearing white t-shirts. Printed in front is the red letters “Justice Now”. It is the group formed by them to pursue justice for the killings. On the way to the municipality of Ampatuan, we received a text message that there are delegations from Cotabato and Davao. The delegation is composed of NGOs, students and media men who sympathized with the family. Upon arrival, we saw how big the delegation was. I estimated it to be around 500 people all in all. We went to the Municipal Hall ground (This is also the same spot where we convene during the January 3 digging). Then we ate our lunch. After which we went on to visit the site.

Herbalism: Stinging Neetle

Local name: Bulan-bulan

Stinging Neetle is a very important herb in Filipino Mysticism. It is the herb that is used by “mangkukulam” to stuff the doll intended for the craft. The herb is dried and pounded and stuffed inside the doll. This will strengthen the effect of sympathetic magic.

This herb is usually found in damp areas. It grows in areas with water supply. That is why during rainy days, there is usually plenty of supply of this herb.

Just be extra careful in harvesting this herb. The leaves are very itchy. Use gloves if necessary in harvesting this herb. As much as possible, avoid skin contact with the leaves.

Another usage of this herb is in making the “BANISHING DUST”. This dust is used in banishing unwanted persons in your place.

Mix equal parts of the powdered stinging neetle and graveyard dust. Sprinkle the dust in the place where your intended victim is sitting. Just be careful you will not be caught doing this. After a few moments, the person will leave the place.

Death of a loved one

I lighted a candle, burn some incense. I expressed my thanksgiving who had guided my life for 3 years. She had been with me in good and bad times.
Because of my gratitude for her existence in my life, as my familiar, I had opened a blog dedicated to her presence in my life. In this blog, you can read the story of her life.

http://mysticlake-acatstale.blogspot.com

Thank you Thacky for being my friend... for being my familiar...

Thacky (December 23, 2007 - January 16, 2010)

Tigger: The familiar for the year of the Tiger

When Aurora died, I was left without familiar to lean on. That also happened when I accepted the case of the missing person in the Maguindanao Massacre. But Bathala is very good to me. He gave me TIGGER. Now, I have somebody who sleeps with me. I can now sleep peacefully at night.

I am just anticipating what would happen... This is the first time that I have a male familiar. Since childhood, my familiars are all female. Now that Tigger became my familiar, what's next?

Momay Case: Open grave on the opening of the year

JANUARY 3, 2010 / Saturday. At 6 o’clock in the morning, Nenen fetch me at home. I met her cousins and tita, the sister of Bebot (the missing mediaman). We travelled to Maguindanao. Initially we planned to go directly to the massacre site. Along the way, we received a message that there is a grave that was discovered.

We dropped by in the Police station of Ampatuan, Maguindanao. There I was introduced to the different persons involved in the investigation. I was surprised to see ABS-CBN there. I also met the SOCO team of General Santos and ARMM. I also met the lawyer of the CHRP (Commission on Human Rights of the Philippines). I was very surprised because they are all very nice to me. I was anticipating that they won’t be able to see my value, as a psychic, in situations like that. But they were very cooperative.

I shared to everyone the visions I had. I managed to draw them crudely. They were listening to me intensely. I was also asked by ABS-CBN about my own investigation regarding the case. Then, we went on to the new site, to open the grave.

We travelled from the police station to a remote area in Maguindanao. It was in the opposite direction of the massacre site. After about 15 minutes of rough road, we disembark and got ready for a walk.

We walked for about 30 minutes. The scourging heat of the sun was too much to bear. The terrain we are traversing is also not that enjoyable. Finally, we arrived to the site that was mentioned to us.

When we arrived at the site, the stench of rotting human flesh is really unmistakable. The SOCO team began to dig up the grave. I took my distance because of the smell.

While the SOCO team is opening the grave, I did my reading regarding the grave site. I saw the image of a girl, from 18 to 25 years old. She was very beautiful...

After about an hour of digging, the SOCO team stopped. They've given up because they thought that there's no body there. It's because the soil is compact, and there's no way that they could have dug that deep.

At around noon time, we pulled out.

There was no body in the grave. But the stench of a dead body is unmistakable. Maybe it has been moved.

We wrapped up everything. I am hoping that the next time I will have the opportunity to see the massacre site.

Tarot Reading for 2010

The New Year is here once again. Let us say goodbye to 2009. Let’s welcome the Year of the Tiger with a fortune reading.

I am actually doing this every year. Before the year ends, I spread my tarot cards to take a peek at what to expect during the New Year. Only this time, I will not be doing it for my own fortune. I will be reading the fortune of our country, the Philippines, for 2010.
Here, take a glimpse at what to expect for the year of the Metal Tiger.


JANUARY
The year will start with some relationship and emotional struggle. The element of water is at play. Water holds a lot of mystery and a lot of confusion. However, each struggle will be an open window for a new realization. Hence, it will bring about some changes in the society.

FEBRUARY
This month poses a lot of danger to the society. There would be a painful transformation. A possible calamity, be it man made or natural, will take place during this year. Economic struggle in the country is also very strong. We might as well be careful with the choices we make during this month.

MARCH
Violence never sleeps. As this month approaches, there will be many incidents involving high ranking officials. There will also be huge fire that might take place. But it is not all bad news. There will be an emerging victory for those who really needed change in their lives.

APRIL
There will be some good news in the economy as prices of commodities might actually drop. However there is always a price to pay. There would be some companies that might be endangered to be closed. Those who own a lot of industries or manufacturing plants must be very careful in handling the demands and causes of their workers.

MAY
Secrets will be revealed during this month. A violent-free election is not a guarantee as there will be a lot of election related incidents that will happen. Another possible fire will also take place.

JUNE
There will be significant drop in the economy. Prices will continue to rise. And a possible threat coming from other countries will emerge.