Life is not so easy on me these days. And yet, it will not stop me from doing what I wanted to do...
It is my second year as Guidance Counselor of the school. And as I sank deeper into the job, I realized how demanding it is.
I've been neglecting my spiritual development, my magickal life, and the job had been trying to pull me closer into embracing a more mundane life.
I've tried my best to create some new spells for me to go back to being who I was before but then I just end up grinding some herbs... leaving them for awhile... ending up not pushing through with the spell. I guess that is how it is... once it is not meant to be, you don't have to push it further... somehow I have to know when to fight for things that really matter to me or to give up things that don't matter anymore.
There's no harm in trying to relax, right? Even if I've been contemplating about my life, it will 
not stop me from enjoying life to the fullest. MUSIC!!! It is my best outlet. I've been having constant bonding with my students. They've help me out in trying to find some leisure in life. Somehow I am very grateful because these are good kids. They just wanted happiness. They are not like those students who would want to get closer to their teacher to get something out of it (like good grades, or great favor in school). They are welcoming me into their lives because they know that they can learn more from my experience.
not stop me from enjoying life to the fullest. MUSIC!!! It is my best outlet. I've been having constant bonding with my students. They've help me out in trying to find some leisure in life. Somehow I am very grateful because these are good kids. They just wanted happiness. They are not like those students who would want to get closer to their teacher to get something out of it (like good grades, or great favor in school). They are welcoming me into their lives because they know that they can learn more from my experience.I've tried hard to give out a cry for help through the internet. I tried to post some invitation for "would-be" students, who would eventually continue what I've started... but still the wind fell silent.
Nobody knows what will happen next. Even the greatest psychic is blinded by the baggages he had in his heart... "Tama ang kita, mali ang basa."
Maybe someday, all these things will just be part of an existence... Where the Book of Shadows is buried deep into the heart of the earth.
