Redemption...

How can a corrupted soul gain back its innocence?

The new being is born

I did had a great time during the pictorial for my portfolio. I am trying to rebuild a new "self", to bring about a new and improve me.


Now that I have taken the step, I would be taking a route where most people wish to follow... What awaits me? A lot of people to meet. Frustration. Maybe a little luck. What the hell... What matters most is the experience... For I know that this life would lead into something that is worth celebrating in the end.

The ex-psychic meets the ex-housemate

Jeremy and I had been text mates for quite sometime. I became friends with him through a common friend. There were several occassions we planned to meet. And finally it became a reality...

Jeremy is nice. He is down-to-earth and share my interest in the paranormal. From the image of "hari ng anime" he now looks good with the new haircut.

This meeting is very important since we will be making a project together. What project? Soon everyone will find out.

When the phoenix rises... transformation begins

When I was young, I am really fond of the image of the phoenix. It's legend is inspiring in the areas of immortality and transformation. According to legend, phoenix are always male (contrast to what the movies and comics are portraying). When the phoenix reaches the age of death, it rests on his nest and gather some herbs and incense to burn itself. From the ashes, a new phoenix rises.

I view my life as similar to that of the phoenix. There are times when the "old self" must die to give way to the necessity of the birth of the new one.

Early this morning, I just got my haircut. Having a new look for myself. I am also trying my best to "physically change" myself like the manner I handle my clothes, my body... everything physical. Through this transformation, I hope to cope up with things. And bring about a new being... better than ever.

One of the big decision I made is to let go of my "paranormal activities". Lately, I've decided not to entertain clients for tarot reading, and even tv guestings about the paranormal. This is because, I decided to take on a different route in my life. This route had been what I really wanted to achieve.

Of course, the magick of life is still there. The magick that I onced lived would forever be there. But that life, as it always was, would just be in my private, sacred space... shared only to few people I treasured the most.

Some had noticed why I haven't posted any pictures of myself in this blog for quite sometime. This is because I am just getting my self ready. In due time, I wanted to unveil the looks that would bring about the "new being"... rising from the ashes of the old phoenix.

What's next?

In the past few days, I've been through a lot. Maybe because of emotional burdens, my body is very weak. I could hardly move. My headache is unbearable. I am cold all the time. My body is aching... and yet I have to attend to few of my responsibilities.

TRANSFORMATION. Everytime this phase in my life happens, it is always this way. It seems that I didn't learned anything from past mistakes. Emotional struggle is not always easy, especially for someone who takes everything (and every emotions) seriously...

The "Death Card" of the tarot is the card that is often misunderstood. When somebody sees this in the reading, they usually associate it with physical death. (Maybe because of those movies that uses it as a props for a mere dramatic effect.) I hope it really mean "physical death". This is because as some people would believe, "There are things worst than death."

I must admit, I am experiencing some sort of " emotional roller coaster ride". The natural tendency is to rant about it. Complain about things. Blaming other people. But deep inside, I know that this is just a "phase" in my life... this moment will also pass for nothing stays the same forever.

The second time with Shoptalk

I can still remember my last years interview of Miss Pia Hontiveros in Shoptalk (ANC). The interview was fun. We actually had an overtime. Miss Pia was interested.

Now, Shoptalk contacted me again. They needed fresh investigators for the show. So I recommended Gilbert, Nap and other people. I told them that I am free, but they refused to interview me since I was featured last year.

During the tapping, I accompanied Gilbert and Nap for the interview. Just a moral support. But they had no third investigator. Right there and then, I was interviewed by Miss Pia. I was totally unprepared. But sitting there with Miss Pia seems very comfortable to me. She had a welcoming attitude and a very friendly attitude towards her guests. I also shared to her about my investigation for the missing children (refer to my previous post).


I saw the segment of Shoptalk this afternoon. It was short. But I was satisfied. I was even shocked that they featured my pictures during their closing.

The investigation in the Haunted Jail

It is already dawn when we arrived at Daet, Camarines Norte. The staff of Rated K decided to rest first before jumping into action. Kuya Jeff and I rested for awhile. Then we visited Kuya Jeff's kids.

When we went back to the resort, the staff is having coffee. They are ready for action. We immediately went to the jail. They interviewed some policemen and people in the area about the case. Then my time had come... I will be coming in.

Upon my arrival, an entity flashed in my mind. His presence lingered around the jail. I asked for some paper and pen. I draw the entity I saw. I then texted Ka Mon (a friend who is knowledgeable with entities). I described what I saw and asked what it is. Ka Mon texted me that it is an "Agta", a close relative of a "Kapre". Clearly, I could see some resemblance.

I went inside the cell to sense some of the souls of people who died there. But there was nothing. All I can sense is the presence of the "Agta".

After the jail, we looked for the family of those who died in the cell. We asked them about their accounts of the story. We also found a lone survivor. People told us that he become insane. But when we interviewed him, he is as sane as anybody else. He recounted all of the things that he had experienced in the cell. We found out that he was the last who experienced the entity. Told remembered that somebody is telling him "Ask for a poison. Kill yourself. Commit suicide." While there are also almost 300 souls telling him "Get out of here. Save us." He even showed us the scars he had when he tried to get out of the cell. Eventually he learned to control everything, and prayed for the souls in the cell.

Until now, everything is still a mystery for me. Was the entity after the souls of those who are detained in that cell? Why was it that all of the houses of the people who died is along the river? Are there connections to this?

All I know is that, all the suicides in that cell stopped. And I also lighted a candle to pray for peace for those who died. And for the entity to leave the place be.